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At this moment in my life, i’m at a fork-road. 2 Routes, 2 choices and unlimitless outcomes. However, one thing is certain… I’ve set an aim to myself and i must have the mindset to try to achieve or over-achieve that above mentioned level. This is the point where i feel that i have control of my own life. For all this time, it has never been like that, as if my own destiny on a leash which is guided by an invisible hand. I doubt every move i make and make silly & calculable mistakes. In good grace it seems such mistakes are lesser. Have a grown? I hope so.

Soon a new chapter will start in my book. Forgoing the swirl of life and destiny. Frankly i question myself everytime i’m at doubt. However that must change. The people i have met and the experiences that i have been through has reinforced a strong sense of self confidence, however, such self-doubting questions still linger at certain very trying times.

Question: Is it wrong to question the unquestionable ?

Answer: Doubt everything but yourself, and stand in the path of righteousness. Questions are only answered when one dares to question the unquestionable.

My egoism is equivelant to the Titanic. A one way journey to a bottomless depth. Forseeing myself as a symbology of a neo-egoistic is very unforgiving. Change is imminent.

At this moment in my life i’m really thankful that i’ve met a few people that made one hell of an impact to my life. Those who are willing to share their knowledge and reinforce my interest in what used to seem to be a bore or a chore. Such people have made a better person out of me. You deserve my thanks however small or large their contribution has been.

THANKS

Hope my next few blog entries are examples of a better stride in my newly lighted path. University here i come.

What fuels a person’s passion? Ambition? Money? Love? Sex? Power? or Passion itself?
What fuels my passion? I’d abruptly say passion itself however the other above mentioned factors come into play once too many times. Being in a situation fuels myself, at the oddest times would you get the brightest answers or maybe more appropriately called opinions. I am in a situation, a situation where a certain aspect of infernal politics comes into play. I am human. I get tired. I get wired. I hate being pushed around, i doubt anybody likes getting pushed around unless deliberate.
What have i learnt after yrs of in service? I’ve learnt from not many people not many things, but what i’ve learnt about the most is how to be a better person. I doubt i can judge myself as a better person, however i do feel an improvement.

Frankly, I am tired!

Of what? People. Guess that explains my love for quiet places. Guess that explains my loner habits. Certain people bores me, certain people irritates me. Boredom i can handle, irritation however is a total different planet whatsoever.

I am tired

Questionable thoughts with questionable answers. Life is interesting knowing that the next step you take could be your last. Some people do what ever they want to keep themselves happy with the thought of self-satisfication. Some people keeps themselves happy by yrs of devoted service, by giving oneself to another, sacrificing money, time and life in turn to make another person’s life better. With out a questionale thought, such people are big at heart and demands absolute respect. Absolutely absolute respect. Sacrificial motives arent easy. Though personally, i’m more of a “screw you, i’m gonna do it my way cos i’m gonna enjoy it” sort of guy. Being encased by a circle of responsibilities feels like a ball and chain to me. I stand for freedom. Rules are meant to keep people in line, prevention, not captivation.

Again another post full of questionable questions without any answers brought to you by me, myself and my unnerving ego-ism.