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I’ve been feeling quite a fair bit anxious. My results are suppose to be out by monday. And here I am in a pool of my own anxiousness waiting for them still, its thursday today.

Read the newspapers recently? Apparently they gunned down the Malaysian terrorist in Indonesia, and typically the Malaysian government is using it as propaganda to ward off *potential* evil-do-ers/terrorists/extremists. Non-sense like this wont happen if Bush isn’t in the presidential seat. Thanks to him and his brainless coolies, the world isn’t a very nice place to live in at the moment. If i was a muslim and everyday i hear news of the appaling state in muslim countries, someday or another i might snap too. Frankly someone should just get a gun and put the old bastard out, that’ll fix everything up.

All this talk about security and anti-terrorism, talks of how to ward off suicide bombers, talks of getting more information and at a faster rate. What do we have instead? Less freedom of speech, stripping naked or having to take off shoes so that some smelly, fat, racist pig could put their greasy hands on you for *security* reasons when travelling to other countries and in this age of so-called globalism where we are united as one? Pathetic. Simply pathetic. If i had a choice and power, i’d take all the *influential* leaders, stuff them into a van and break their legs, naturally Bush would be first. In truth, i despise politics. But in the state of reality we live in right now, ignoring politics isn’t a good choice. Aren’t we the people suppose to have the power?

Bored stiff. Went surfing around and stopped over at www.nst.com.my.
And I stumbled upon this.

It sickens me that young children are exposed to such acts. Being abandoned by her natural mother, scalded, beaten and found wondering around at night. Such audacity! I can’t imagine why a sane human being would do such a thing to a poor innocent child. Being abused physically and mentally, having no one to hold on to, no one to go to when everything and everyone fails her, having no taste of compassion nor love, being in the dark, eternal depths of loneliness. 9 yrs old and already exposed to the dark side of reality. How could anyone do such things to a child?? How??

I question the state of our world today. Aren’t we human beings the dominant species due to our intelligence, compassion, able to think and feel for people, other living beings or even things that has no life nor soul? I question the state of our world today. Anyone who questions my representation of present world in the form of a painting would resemble massive blotches of black, grey and red and silhouette of people, animals and leaf-less trees in the blackest of black, sprinkled in rain of red signifying bloodshed.

A sickening image really. And yet, in the darkest of times, a little part of me has hope still. And everyday I hang onto that hope, not only for my own little existence, but for what i believe and feel, an epitome of hope that good still prevails in the darkest times. HOPE.