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Many things are rather frazzled and blurry, indirect. I hate that. I hate the fact that a single conversation could have multiple meanings. I hate the fact that what you originally meant is misinterpretated by the one that’s listening. I hate the fact that I can’t have what I really want. I hate the fact that people keep on poking at me at the wrong places and at the wrong time, and I hate the fact that I can’t do anything bout it cos they wouldn’t know that they’d irritated me. I hate the fact that I implied everything in good faith and yet I get shot down for my good intentions. I hate the fact that some people act as your good friends and fuck you off when they don’t need you.

Today I feel so dazed and confused. I’ve been missing junctions that I’m suppose to take while driving, nearly had an accident. If my head wasn’t screwed on to my body I think I’d left it at the shops when I bought cigarettes a few hours ago. I wonder if my humour is somewhere in Italy right now having espresso with a fine italian woman. I’m pretty sure its not in me. I could safely bet that my reasoning is in Italy as well right now making love to another beautiful italian woman. I’ve been lacking these two the whole bloody day. Or maybe the both of them got blindfolded, kidnapped, sodomised before getting bullets behind their backs by my emotions. Emotions I don’t need at this point in time. I need good ol’ fashion humour.
While driving to tapao for dinner couple of hours ago:

Moses: “…Darth Vader is fucking invincible man!”
me: “uhuh… *mumbles*”

Moses looks at me and points to the junction that I’m suppose to take but I passed.

Moses: “wtf is wrong with you… you miss the junction la!”

me while trying to save face: “Bring you jalan-jalan mah!”
Moses: “Jalan your head ah… you fucking dreaming for what???”
I miss another junction.

Moses: “What the FUCK!!! AGAIN!!! You dreaming bout what? Fang Fang ka?”

*note: No I wasn’t dreaming about Fang Fang.

me: “Where’s your sense of exploration?” (Saving face)

Moses: “Cibai… I got discussion later and you talking bout exploration.. explore my balls”

Me finally going into the right junction.