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What are the odds of having the opportunity at the right time, at the right place? Slim no? Many things happened today, I feel broken, people bearing news which are elating to them but plain painful to myself. I have to stop lying to myself. There are limitations to what are dreams and what they could become. I feel that I should stop thinking about relationships and concentrate solely on improving myself, financially, socially, maturity and what I have binded myself to, principality.
Everyone wants the sense of belonging, and I am here at a crossroad. Being the person that I am I set principles to myself, such for an example is the principle of not mixing money with friendship and its safe to say that I’ve broken that mentioned principle. I’m in the state of guilt and hatred knowing that I’ve broken what I’ve stood for a long time. And yet the outcome of breaking this principle equates to riches. Is money more important than friends? Come to think about it I have not broken the principle in totality, more like bending it a bit. I’m working together with my friends to achieve an outcome, we are all striving together to reach that one goal. Tell me am I right or am I wrong? They did mention that I am a pillar in the said plan, without my knowledge and resources we would not be able to move on. It is a fantastic morale boost to myself knowing that I, the fuck-face that I am is worthy to someone else, especially my own friends, and with my grey matter I’m able to contribute a whole lot. Tell me now whether I am right or wrong. Nevertheless life still goes on.

I really miss my old 1.7 16v Boxer Alfa Romeo 145. *Sigh* She’s the only one that was there for me whenever I needed her. Sure she was a bitch to own and maintain but the brief moment that we were together was so sweet. She was so sure-footed and handled exceptionally well, and her sweet boxer engine revving at nearly 7,000 rpm with the induction and exhaust at full song. I personally feel that its better to pour my heart and soul into cars instead of relationships. Cars will only break your heart when you allow it. Women don’t.